I can genuinely attest that I feel spiritually dehydrated at the moment despite having constant examples of the vast multitude of God's wonders everyday at work. I see it in my patient with cerebral palsy who in her early 20s, has a lung capacity that is less than half of ours, but who still soldiers on with smiles on her face, I see it when families gather around a loved one who is approaching the end of his or her life and I see it in the determination and dedication of the hospital staff, who tirelessly work to provide good care to patients. I see God in the miraculous machines that keep patients alive, and I saw God last week when He showered us with snow from the heavens.
But with the pressure of getting things done quickly and having to be pulled in a hundred different directions, it has been tough to take notice of those little glimpses of Him in those moments. We are not afforded much time to be present in the moment and truly reflect. Having said that, I do crave and miss His company. I know He is always there near me, watching over me and holding my hand through every journey. But it is I who is deficient - who forgets to let Him in and who forgets to thank Him for all the glorious blessings in my life.
It is I who comes back home from work, in most times exhausted, and instead of talking to Him about my day - its ups and downs, its challenges and wins - I instead choose to lazily watch mindless videos on the internet to pass the time. Needless to say, I have alot of work to do. But I take comfort in the fact that the realisation and acknowledgement of a problem are first steps towards positive change. The road ahead is filled with obstacles, but nothing worthwhile is ever easy.
Sahih Bukhari (97:34): "...if he comes to Me walking, I go to him running."
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