221: 18.1 Transforming

After about a year and a half, I had my locks drastically chopped off! Although I wear the headscarf, as a woman, I do still treasure my hair and make it a point maybe once or twice a year to give proper TLC to it via trips to the salon. I like experimenting with different hairstyles - and the fact that if a risky plunge into hair styling didn't pay off - no ones the wiser is really liberating! So after last weeks trip to the salon, I feel much lighter, brighter and possibly mature?

Also 18 months in as a doctor, I have come to a stage where I am somewhat confident assuming that role. The feeling of being a complete imposter has been gradually shed, and when the nurse on the ward calls out, "Doctor!" I immediately turn when usually I would sheepishly think that she or he might have been referring to someone else. After gaining what little experience I have, I know how to handle emergencies alone or when it is appropriate to seek help. Its like alongside that haircut, I have also shed off my old timid self.

Just in time really! In a few days I will be interviewed for a paediatric specialist training post. Alhamdulillah, more than anxious, I feel excited. I do feel God has led me to this path (step by gruelling step) and He has prepared me well - I am ready.